+i.cry.because.i.suck+

last night i was so afraid to sleep. i wanted to stay up until the sun rises in the east. i dont want to sleep for fear i might have a nightmare once again.. yes. a nightmare.


it isn't the usual kind of nightmare that we know. you know, people-chasing ghosts, people-eating monsters and other stuffs like that. no. it wasnt like that. it's different.


i dreamt of my mom. we were on a place i can't distinguish where. i dont remember how the story goes. or how it happened so fast. i just suddenly saw her being killed by someone. and i was there. i stood there watching her being killed. then holding her as she was gasping for more air to breathe. she died. in my arms. i was so hurt knowing i didnt do anything to save her. then i woke up. sobbing and crying. i know it was just a dream. it isn't real. but the feeling is still there when i woke up. i felt so scared. it was so real i felt so frightened.


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