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FUCKS ABOUT ME #2536383929

Namimiss ko si Rei. I once had this habit na kapag I am feeling depressed or "dark" I'd change my name to Misery. There are lots of people who knew me by that name or whenever I feel like being cute, I'd change it to Mai Sio (dunno how this name struck me as cute lol)

That habit kinda stopped. I didnt even notice, I was already using one particular name and havent changed since.

Rei was a lot of things. She's been the dark, the cute, and probably the real me. Due to my fear of getting my account locked up (like what happened to my family account), I decided to use my real name.

Lian on the other hand, was just a name. Or maybe she was the "past." Something I'd rather not dwell on to. And it sucks na yung mga bagay na gusto mong kalimutan, yun pa yung mananatili sayo until you draw your last breath.

There was a time, though when I felt proud and happy being Lian. Met a lot of good and special people, made a lot of memories, it was one of those real happy times. And I was thankful for it.

But there came a point when I felt like I no longer know her. I was so used getting called Rei or Missy, I was so used feeling everything as Rei.. It seemed more awfully familiar being called Rei more than anything. Heck, it even almost felt like it was my real name.

It's weird, though. Na may mga ganitong bagay ang mga tao just to express their emotions. Magkakaiba man ng paraan, gaano man kababaw, people would always look for a way to survive. This was probably one of mine. I'm not sure. But it could be.