18.16.05

Nagkuwento siya. He told me na there was a time when he kind of woke up in the middle of the night. He looked at me sleeping by his side and had this passing thought na he didn't wanna go through life without me.

He, who rarely talk about his feelings, or anything na naiisip niya about me, would suddenly tell me such things, it gives off a warm feeling, and at the same time, it pains me. Dahil napakaselfish ko. Here's a guy saying life wouldn't be the same without me, and here I am, constantly contemplating how miserable and worthless my life is, constantly planning how I'd end it, constantly feeling suicidal.

I never thought my worthless existence would have a huge impact on someone else's life.