Daddy, who are you? Part II

Dearest Dad,

I'm sorry I lied. I'm not glad you stayed home today. I'm not okay having you around. I'm not okay talking to you. I'm not okay being with you. And I hate you for acting like nothing's wrong. For pretending that you care for mom, you care for us. If you really do, why do such a thing? Why do you have to make us trust you and then go away and break it?

I can't look at you in the eyes now, Dad. I can't see you without seeing you and her in my eyes doing something stupid. I can't look up to you anymore. I thought you're the bestest guy. The only guy I could look up to. But you proved me wrong. You are just another cheating liar. And I hate you for that.

I hate you for hurting mom.. I hate you the most right now. And no matter what you do to make things right, you can never take away this pain anymore in me. I would never see you as the best dad anymore.

You are just another stranger to me now.

And I totally hate you the most for that.

Who are you now, Daddy? I don't know you anymore. I don't want to know you anymore.

So long. Stranger.

Daddy, who are you? Part I

I'm glad Dad stayed home today.

Fuckin' Perfect

Naadik ako sa bagong kanta ni Pink ngayon. Nakakadepress ang mga nakaraang araw. And then there's the cuts and scars issue. And Pink's song is like pefectly made for me. for everyone like me. Who suffers the same issues like me. And..