Iyak.

Magtatapos na nga lang ang taon pero puro iyak ako lately. Everything's utterly depressing. Every time I wake up in the middle of the night, alone, in my small unit, away from my family, all I could picture was myself hanging from the ceiling.

And all I could do was cry.
What am I still here for? :(

Wtf do you want me to do?

Hindi ko gets kung bakit.
I am working hard, probably even harder than most, I am doing my best, I am trying to change for the better, to learn how to stand up on my own two feet, to achieve more than what I think I can...
But nothing pays off.

Only disappointments.
And failures.

So paano? Ano nalang ang gagawin ko?

Should I just really freakin give this fucking life up? I am almost done with everything.

You don't give a shit, you don't try hard, of course nothing will happen
You give everything, you try hard pero wala pa ring nangyayari.

Samantalang yung iba wala pa silang ginagawa lahat nan blessings meron na agad sila.

Parang nakakaloko, nakakatanga, nakakagago puta.

I hate this, i hate me, i hate this life. Fuck everyone!