i'm such a jerk! i wish i could fade out in this world now... so, i won't have to feel what i'm feeling right now... i hate myself. i'm feeling lost! what would i do?!aaahhh! such an old nasty feeling!time flew so fast and i can't seem to ride with it...i am always left behind, feelin' so unsure of myself... i don't deserve any chances i have... i dont deserve anything and everything... i don't deserve anyone... damn me! shit.
